I Still Remember

He was deliciously simple and delicate
Dangerous and ravenous, the way he loved tenderly
The risk he took in loving me
Clutching me in the arms of his romance
Stroking me earnestly through words of sincerity
Dying in his presence/resurrecting myself in his moments of laughter
He is the glue piecing together the broken parts of me
The erotic part of me that yearns for intimacy
his conversations seduces/ the way his hands settles in between mine’s
and although we’ve traveled away from each other/ I remember the way his smile lights up the darkness
I can remember the secrets in the midst of our alone-ness in our together-ness

In the words of Jennifer Lopez, “I luh ya papi”

I wonder if you know how it feels to have your heart
taken from beneathe your flesh and bones
To feel exposed
Naked
Vulnerable
Experiencing moments in which we bonded
Spilling out our hearts like childhood friends
Finding rest and peace in each other’s words
Yeah, we bonded like a young child to its toy
A mother to her babe
However, I just hope that this pain
that this unexpected loss of a friend
will not burden me into anger
for anger will only keep me imprisoned
I wish these words will penetrate deep within the wounds of this darkness
where demons and jinns play
so that you’ll know that a heart should be nurtured
not used and abused
to have our innnermost secrets revealed to one another
to have our lives presented like a piece of art on display
How can it be so easy to leave someone’s heart vulnerable?
To run away from the bond that we had
Where are you
It’s been too long
and your absence will forever stain me eternally
leaving me wounded from this assault on my innermost being
I wonder if you have restless nights
that are cold, dreary and dark
My friend I wonder if it hurts for you to really love
for you to dig deep within the essence of this human-experience

why are you so speeachless now
?

A Love Like No Other

I want to collapse within your arms
Ride upon the tidal waves of your words
Become immersed in your thoughts
Rest my heart upon yours
Lie limp while listening to your secrets
Indulge in a world that is secretly ours
Gaze upon one another
Watching one another breathe
Matching our heart beats with one another
Placing our hands upon each others heart
Feeling our bodies intertwine
Beating like drums
Racing like cars dashing down an open road
Our eyes meet
Looking within each other’s windows
Seeing fear, love, excitement and hurt
Tears racing down his face
Shattering upon my hands
Lifting his head
Wiping away his tears
Smiling
Holding onto his hands and whispering
“My love, I will never leave you. I will always be right here”

A Love Like No Other

Many times throughout the day she would talk to him
Tell intimate secrets of her life
Asking for help and a little hope
You know…things sometimes get hard
Jasmine, a young woman of 18
never found a love so true
so deep
so real
Always finding time to seek out a place
to take out time
to whisper when others were around
to vent
to have someone to talk to
You know…things sometime gets hard
A recent divorce between her father and mother
An unexpected death of a cousin
An upcoming graduation from high-school
A recent marriage-proposal
She needed someone to confide in
To listen to her
To give her hope
A little reassurance
Her heart was heavy
Bearing weight she sometimes wasn’t sure she could hold
Eyes that would bleed pain
Hands that felt unsteady and sometimes shaky
In the early hours she would awake from her slumber
Slumped over in her hands
Calling him by His names
Ar-Rahman
Ar-Razaaq
Al-Muhaymin
As-Sabur
Reading His words
And praying that He will never leave her alone
in a world in which demons lie and souls are taken
in the blink of an eye